pieces of me

Okay, here's the deal...

You are single and of course available. It's been years since your last relationship. Then suddenly you found a guy which later you claim he's special because you feel like there's a spark. Do things like couples do, hanging out, "deting gaya student", holding hands and getting starry eyed over dinners. Several weeks later you starting to feel like he's avoiding you, telling that he's busy with his assignments and classes. Before you know it, he disappears which made you wonder if he's gone.

Well, sounds familiar? Hehe..

So you waiting for his call wondering what exactly happens, wondering what's wrong you. You know what? Maybe he's not that into you. Here's some point that might tell you that he's not into you.

If the guy really interested in you, it's easy to know- they make sure you know it. There's no middle ground. It's either yes or no, interested or not interested. Whatever it is the question is, do you want a guy who's not sure if he wants to be with you?

Second, I think I got an issue about marriage. I read a blog about a pregnant lady who is unhappy with her marriage life but enjoys being pregnant. She said she knew her husband only for several months and then got married. She was happy and crazy in love with her husband before they got married and still do. But the way her husband treat her from the way she wrote, quite sad.

"he once told me that he's not going to manja2 me when we r married. But i thought he is just jokin around with me. i guess that he really mean it bout it now.I dun ever get the experience to mengada or manja2 with my own hubby.pretty sad huh??"

Of course, I barely understand how they communicate, behave and respond to each other. But when I think about it, what if I have the same situation with this woman? What should I do? Ye la, before marriage he talks sweet things, sweet promises not gonna be like this and that after marriage, he's not that kind of person, he swears he won't leave you, he loves you (that's what he said la). Then what happen after getting married? Suddenly he changed, totally a different person. May be there's something wrong with the wife that the husband don't tell. What's wrong actually? Why certain peeps suddenly change after getting married?

Or is it...how should I put this eh? Guys, no offense aite. But some of my friends and me, we have crappy thoughts. One of them is, the reason why guys a bit cold after getting married is because he got what he wants. I mean he finally gets what he wants with the girl. Ok, if I'm wrong do take corrective action. :)

*Un sighs~
I guess I'm not gonna find the answer until I get married, eh? Erm, this stuffs do bother me a lot. It makes me worry and I feel afraid to think about marriage. At times I do think I don't want to get married because I heard a lot of unhappy marriage, husband has scandals, wife got affairs, a lot actually from friends. I know, I know, peeps surely will say "c'mon la Un, you think too much." Well, I do think too much especially about marriage. Think again, you'll live with them for the rest of your life. 20, 30, 40 years..It's not a joke and it requires commitment, give-n-take, maturity, responsibilities and needs efforts too. And what happens if my marriage is not as beautiful as other people? Okay, too much already.

Things like that always bothering me. And it won't stop until....I don't even know when it's gonna end. All I can say is, girls & guys, live life to the fullest and enjoy as much as you can while you're single. Until next time.