No wonder people don’t like the idea of dying. You're dying and God approved. It’s a nightmare.
My name is Nurunnisa. In Malay it means Cahaya Perempuan/Wanita. It comes from Arabic words Nur (means a cahaya) and Nisa (means perempuan/wanita).
It is a nice name and some people usually relate your personality with your name. For example, when I was in school, my teacher always said I have a nice name but I didn’t behave like what my name meant. Back then I was a naughty student and I was like a tomboy. But I like being naughty because I hate living on the straight lines and obey the rules.
That makes me feel confuse. Do we really need to behave as nicely as what our name’s mean? For me, it is supposed to be I want my name to mean me. Not the other way round.
Last entry I mentioned about me being angry and being in denial. I’m in denial because I lied to myself. I told myself that I am not angry at and that I can make myself not to think about it. But I could not. That is why I am angry at myself and I don’t know how to channel the anger and it makes my heart beats faster than usual.
It beats faster, feel like I’m at the top of the tallest building and I look down and I feel like I’m going to fall.
When I’m angry I like to sing The Used song titled Buried Myself Alive. It makes me feel calm and it makes me forget about the anger. Sometimes the song is not related to the reason why I am angry but it is my default song when I’m angry.
I always relate the color red with my anger. I don’t know why it is red when I'm angry. And when I feel calm or cool down, it is blue color.
You don’t get it, do you? Let’s just say this is how I defining or describing my emotions and relate it with colors. I think the perfect word to describe what I’m trying to say is simile. I used simile to describe how I feel and it is definitely not a metaphor. A metaphor is when you describe something by using a word for something that it isn’t. For example, the cat was stone dead.
This is the weirdest entry I have wrote. Until next time.
| You Should Be An Aquarius |
 What's good about you: philosophical and idealistic, you are a great thinker What's bad about you: you require a lot of space - it's hard to get close to you In love: you're quirky and playful, but you hate to be smothered In friendship, you're: likely to have many acquaintances and very few good friends Your ideal job: pilot, snow boarder, or science fiction writer Your sense of fashion: unconventional, unique outfits that turn heads You like to pig out on: anything with garlic or unique spices |
By the way, I just knew about these short terms. Just want to share.
Okay la. Later..
(your halo slipping down to choke you now)
