:: anger madness ::
Last entry I mentioned about me being angry and being in denial. I’m in denial because I lied to myself. I told myself that I am not angry at and that I can make myself not to think about it. But I could not. That is why I am angry at myself and I don’t know how to channel the anger and it makes my heart beats faster than usual.
It beats faster, feel like I’m at the top of the tallest building and I look down and I feel like I’m going to fall.
When I’m angry I like to sing The Used song titled Buried Myself Alive. It makes me feel calm and it makes me forget about the anger. Sometimes the song is not related to the reason why I am angry but it is my default song when I’m angry.
I always relate the color red with my anger. I don’t know why it is red when I'm angry. And when I feel calm or cool down, it is blue color.
You don’t get it, do you? Let’s just say this is how I defining or describing my emotions and relate it with colors. I think the perfect word to describe what I’m trying to say is simile. I used simile to describe how I feel and it is definitely not a metaphor. A metaphor is when you describe something by using a word for something that it isn’t. For example, the cat was stone dead.
This is the weirdest entry I have wrote. Until next time.
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on Thursday, June 22, 2006 at 7:08 PM.
